IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD

             IT'S ALL IN YOUR HEAD

I almost missed, once again, a party of a life time because I let my self doubt take over. I use to weigh 352 lbs & I never believed that I could lose the weight. I tried every diet, every pill, every fast, even surgery and nothing worked, until one day I got it. The problem was me! That Fat person was all in my head and I couldn't lose her. Yes, there was physically fat on my body, but the real problem was in my head. I didn't believe I could lose the weight. I couldn't picture myself thinner. I had always been extremely shy as a child and missed out on a lot of fun, because I was afraid to try things or talk to people. What if they didn't like me? What if I failed? I made myself be more outgoing as an adult, because I got tired of missing out. But when I gained weight I started hiding behind it just like I did my shyness as a child. 

I drove 6 hours to meet my upline coach and I was so excited the whole drive up, then when she text that she was in the lobby guess who came to visit? Yep, F*** and I was paralyzed thank God my son was with me, because I probably would have never left the room. I would have missed an outrageous party, seeing the CEO of our company up close, and meet the inspirational women on our team.

My only regret from last night is I did let that person in my head win a battle. You see I lost 173 lbs and then tore a tendon in my hip an gained 75 lbs back. I realized I never really learned to eat right I just exercised like crazy, so when I couldn't do that the weight started to come back on. The 21 Day Fix and Autumn Calabrese have been a life saver for me. By teaching me how to eat right I've now lost 35 of those pounds. And I would have loved to have told her and to have taken a picture with her and I could have because I notice her standing by the door before anyone else. She was alone, but the FAT person in my head won and told me, "I was still fat, look at all the skinny people in the room, really you're going to go up to her?" Damn It! The point is it is all in your head too.

 I want you to know that you can lose the weight and know it won't be easy and there will be ups and downs, but you can do it. Tell the person in your head to SHOUT THE HELL UP! Because you are not wasting 1 more day being trapped in a body you don't want. God bless.